What I have Been Through updated May 4 2015



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No sexual abuse is ever acceptable. Sex offense laws and policies should be based on sound research and common sense, not fear, panic or paranoia. Current laws and policies that paint all sex offenders with one broad brush are counter- productive, wasteful, and cause needless harm. Each offense must be judged on its own merits with a punishment that fits the crime and does not waste taxpayer dollars. The public sex offender registry and residency restriction laws do not protect children but instead ostracize and dehumanize individuals and their families. Money spent on purely punitive measures would be better used for prevention, healing, and rehabilitation.


The author of SO FAQ does not affiliate with any other organization or people on the internet or the world for that matter. I have been saying this since I first logged on to the internet. Just because I like organizations like the ACLU; does not mean I believe in everything they believe in or stand for. Just like in our great country when we vote; we will never believe in everything the candidate we vote for; believes in or stands for. That doe not mean we are should not vote.
 

 
 
 
What I have Been Through:
 
I can not vouch for all the text here! Same for the My Story Updated April 29 page. I am the king of typos for one thing, as I have stated on the internet many times. Believe it or not I am not a good typist. These documents are huge and I have trouble reading them because they remind me of the past: that I would prefer to forget. I have done my best to edit the names out of this. If any of my friends on the internet spot any mistakes I have made please email me them.
 
This document may have things against Collin County and McKinney Texas. I live here because I do love living here. I have learned over the years that there are actually worse county's, city's and states to live as a registered sex offender. Maybe if you need to just put your city's name in instead of mine, and so on.
 
Here you go the first time I have shared anything like this since 1997. I think this is the first time I have shared this on the internet at all, ever for the most part:
 
I would like a federal investigation done against Collin County to find out how the government/police is overwhelmingly influenced by religion.
 
I believe many people have suffered and even been arrested here because of the union of religion and politics. I have no doubt that I am one of those people.
 
I wrote several blogs on separation of church and state here is a sample of those:
 
I had the most awesome separation of church and state html that I worked tirelessly on, but alas I can not find it. I am sure it is some where in the tens of thousands of files I have saved over the past 15 years of bloging here. So I am just going to do some work and write it all over again. So use your little mouse and enjoy my free history lesson for you all.
 
I am not a atheist but,
 
I just can not get over the fact that people in authority of others still do not understand the importance of this Bill Of Right legacy of freedom, we all enjoy in our county. The Bill Of Rights and The Constitution and the birth of this country and the foundation of that, is why we are who we are; the greatest country in the history of the world. No religion has a right to dictate to us what prayers to say or how to live our lives. That does not mean we can not worship how we want to in America. If you live in American or especially have lived here for long enough to see the beauty of it, and still do not get it, I do not know what to tell you.
 
This is one thing that recently reminded me Politian’s and local authority's still do not get it:
Louisiana just submitted a bill calling for public school students to recite the Lord’s Prayer alongside the Pledge of Allegiance.
 
Church and Statehouse
 
NOLA Defender - Apr 8, 2013
 
One of the main reasons I love to support the ACLU is because of separation of church and state:
This subject I learned in all those great history classes I took as a child in Connecticut:
The MAYFLOWER! The Mayflower, the Mayflower, the Mayflower was pounded into my brain as a child in Connecticut and should be to every child today in America. The Mayflower contained the first Americans.
 
"Many of the passengers were Pilgrims fleeing persistent religious persecution"
 
If that is not enough for you than get a old American history book and read up on it yourself. If you love America like I do than stand by separation of church and state like you would the flag.
My story:
 
This is my story and how my friends and family and all the many. many people that believed in me where virtually destroyed in the name of religion and homophobia and hate and prejudice etcetera, etcetera. Not to mention all that I could have been became all that will never be.
 
Yet I am a optimistic person and hope that my record will be expunged and I will be exonerated and pardoned someday in the name of all that is right and fair. None of this is about me only, I am sure there are many more similar stories here and over and over and this is why it is so important for separation of church and state must be upheld here and enforced.
 
Basically what I did was consensual. My charge indicates I raped someone. I passed many polygraphs on the fact that what I did was consensual. It is my way of defending myself. The first thing I did when I took a polygraph was to explain to that Mr. X said “that was real nice” after less than 30 seconds of my mouth on his penis. I can always remember that exact sound of him saying that with a southern drawl careful not to spill chewing tobacco out of his mouth. I think I was meant to remember that.
 
My charge says I raped some one and that is absolutely not true!
 
I plead guilty to get deferred adjudicated probation. The family agreed to let me have deferred adjudicated probation officially through the court. The law required the family’s permission at that time.
 
Deferred adjudicated means there is no conviction! That means I was never convicted of aggravated sexual assault! That means I should not have to register as a sex offender!
 
I completed 11 years of probation and served 7 months in the county jail. My health and stress has been a huge burden through all of this. For almost 20 years I have been disgraced by sex offender registration. That is way more than I deserve for all this, and that is a fact.
 
Because I am deferred adjudicated I can have my record erased. I have no idea why someone has not stepped forward after thousands of letters and emails I have sent to lawyers and judges and politicians all over America.
 
I would be a fool to think I was the only one caught up in the hysteria of sex offence charges like this. That is why I will never give up on any of this, ever.
 
Public Bullying and Human Rights Violation
 
Web sites that list my name listed on goggle (and my fathers name a life time police officer and air force veteran) as a sex offender are un numerable as new ones pop up all the time:
 
Please stop this human rights violation and public bullying of good people  like me! You all know my story and how I was not even guilty of this crime. A rooky over zealous police officer DJ arrested me wrongly for this. The very next week in the newspaper she tried to arrest a video rental store ower for renting vhs copies and wanted to send him to prison for 99 years. McKinney Texas was very different in 1995. I was falsely arrested for and completed deferred adjudicated probation for this disgusting crime I did not commit.
 
I am going to be married to a great women 25 years this January. She makes me happy with her love and has every minute since I met her.

See attached word document it is some good reading I will paste it here too:

Updated 06 -8 2012
I do not want to discourage you in any way. Your service in the only hope to many people. I appreciate what you do beyond words. For human rights groups like you if you were not there people would be in prison or dead. My only hope in life is that someday people will prevail all people. Someday I hope human rights advocate would not be like a curse word instead it be a title of honor. Imagine every human having human rights, everyone living in peace and no one ever being treated unfairly.
 
I am sick of putting myself in danger raising a protest while living in Collin County, Texas  right wing strong hold. If I had the money I would move today. The military moved us here then drained all our saving by putting me on probation and forced psycho therapy for 11 years here for a crime I never committed.
 
I believe this type of type of treatment of human beings in America will be the end of us all and the end of America. I have been saying this publicly for 17 years and I have seen changes because of people like me. Silence is death for sex offenders. Thanks to people like Texasvoices.org/ we still have a little hope.
 
I remember a few years ago when Texas republicans were screaming at the top of their lungs, vote for me and I will give sex offenders the death penalty. I have seen the promising young man that I was; ruined and destroyed right before my eyes. Everything I had to offer society taken by the perversion of the law. I moved to this right wing strong hold of no choice of my own. After 11 years of probation, 1 year illegally placed on me as well as 7 months in jail as a condition of my probation 1 month illegally served; it is hard for me to feel sorry for other sex offenders. In my opinion if enough people are unconstitutionally labeled sex offenders then someday the law will have to have mercy on us or be doomed. I know this may sound weird but Josh got off kind of easy most people here would give anything to serve a small amount of time in prison and not have to go on probation for who knows how long. At least prison is private humiliation were as probation is continual public humiliation. I always tell guys serve your parole to the highest degree obeying anything with out hesitation. It does not end there though does it? Every second of every day your on the internet suffering cruel and unusual punishment is a second of our system reaping what it sews. So next time you hear about the economy going bad or this or that you remember Josh it is because of people like us. We need human rights organizations to sue and sue again at every opportunity for so called sex offenders at a hope to save us all as Americans and the freedoms we hold dear.
 
Can you pardon me? That would be cool huh? You can right a wrong by pardoning me and stop all the bad that has been the result of my unlawful suffering and unwarranted shame. You can stop all the many of thousands of people it has affected negatively first hand, not to mention the people secondarily affected wrongly with darkness for no reason except DJ: the over zealous McKinney detective that wanted a collar. I am not a sex offender and never was. I am a beautiful person and always have been one who cares more about keeping people away from me that being a predator sex offender like I am labeled every minute of every day.

Added 03 21 2012
 
All this and I am not even guilty of this crime at all. I was overwhelmed by being arrested and threatened with 20 years in prison if I did not plead guilty by my lawyer HS
, (yes the senators husband). In order to be guilty I would have had to force Mr. X into penetrating my mouth. I know it is gross. Sorry. Think about it though. How do you force someone to do this? He said “that is real nice”. I have been polygraphed on this like 10 times, because I claimed this vocally and in writing the whole 11 years I was on probation here in the toughest place on crime on earth, “Collin County Texas”.
 
This was a consensual act how ever embarrassing it was for X. Judge CS said “I do not know why someone would plead guilty to this”.  He also said I should feel bad for embarrassing the Xs. Sentenced to a marked life of a despicable person for embarrassing someone?
 
He felt guilty and basically ruined my life because of unconstitutional laws. In order to be guilty I would have had to rape him. My charge is a rape charge. The 65 and older law is only in certain southern states making a 65 and older person the same as if they are under 13 years old.
My life is not ruined. Because I refuse to except that. I have learned to enjoy all the small things in life much more and my wife and dogs make me happy every day. I have always been a positive person and that has not changed nor will as it is part of who I am. I always look on the bright side. The only thing that has changed is the false judgments made against me every day because shameful laws like sex offender registration.
 
Placed on Nazi probation; I have served 7 months in the local jail as a condition of my probation and had my life turned upside down. I have spent enough money to buy a house on probation fees and psycho therapy for over 10 years now.  It has driven my wife and I close to bankruptcy many times.
My grandparents who were my favorite people in the whole world dead 2 years ago. When I was a child my grandparent on my dads side would buy me any thing I wanted. I would spend many weekends with them up until I graduated from high school. They moved to Florida after retiring and would fly me down many times. I am convinced they died sooner than normal because of my ordeals while on probation that I believe have exceeded cruel and unusual punishment with probation officers like MS and JW. I mention these two because they had a out spoken reputation of being cruel.
I will admit that I was using cognitive distortions at that time of my arrest. Since then I have quit using cognitive distortions all together. I have no regrets about this because of the love I have for my wife. I am a good person and like most good people I look on the good side of things. My wife a highly rewarded veteran of 6-7 years of service 3 and a half years in Killen, and 3 and a half years in Seagoville, Texas. My wife has cried many times because of the McKinney, Probation Department’s unreasonable treatment of me. She told me she cried every day of the 7 months I was in the Collin County jail. She has been ill every time I suspect it is the stress of my ordeal. Every illness I have now did not start until the day I was released from the jail.

I have served 1 year over the legal amount of probation aloud by law to my case.
Me getting off probation rest’s squarely on the shoulders of a lunatic, (So Called Therapist). In this email is included a letter about Mr. (So Called Therapist) who I believe became a physiotherapist because of his mentally challenged state. I have been complaining against him for years and expect him to lash out at me any way he can. Not because of any thing right, only because of him having to live with himself after a life ill spent.
 
I will rewrite it for you:
 
I am reminded of a conversation I had with this dude who is a (So Called Therapist). I asked him if he could help explain why psychotic people, who are students murder other human beings? I said; I think education would detour something like this. I am a student and do not want to get shot by any one.
 
Actually I had already drawn a conclusion about this being these people, I just wanted to know what the (So Called Therapist) would say.
 
My conclusions concerning these type of people are the following:
 
# 1 Because not every one is religious and I respect and almost admire that is :

In physiology talk: I think these people are extremely psychopathic and anti social. I mean they have reached a form of mental illness not known to man.
 
# 2 In religious talk, because I live in the Bible belt of America where it seems every one is religious, is as follows:
 
I think these type of people is controlled by evil. Also I believe this type control is something that is not listed in any religious belief at all.
 
The (So Called Therapist) said, in a answer to my question about these type of people was:
It is because people are standing up for their rights. The (So Called Therapist) said; the problem is, people have rights.
 
If this is not the most bazaar thing I have ever heard, I do not know what is!
 
This guy kind of bazaar, period. The thing is this is someone of power in Collin County, Texas.
What he said reminds me of a bumper stickers some rednecks had around here during the last presidential election, that basically said:
 
if you do not vote for Bush, you are a terrorist.
 
It amazes me how people lie, to accomplish things they think is right. Like the bazaar physiotherapist, I am talking about, these closed minded people are stuck in their ways. I have said this all my life and think it is good advise for every one:
 
“ no matter how old I get I will never be too big to learn “ This should be every ones words to live by. The problem is, it is not easy to learn something. This is something most people will deny to them selves. In other words, LIE TO THEMSELVES.
 
That is the problem with closed minded people is they can not learn . If you are a democrat there is no way you are closed minded. That is why I am a democrat. You have to weigh everything before you make a decision. That is what democrats do. That is why we are great!

The Sheriffs Department came to my house last night February 21, 2008 about 9:30 pm. In honor of that I am sending you all a email. The first thing the sheriff said was we are doing a audit and you where on our list. The first thing out of my mouth is my is my usual response to all this, “this is a waste of tax payers money“. If the sheriff’s department wanted to see where I live they could have watched the news a couple days ago. Or they could ask sheriff Y who is investigating the fire, he also investigated the vandalizing of my car against SC who owns the shack across the street from me. I am not complaining about the sheriffs themselves they where good gentlemen. I am complaining about Judge CS who ordered me submit to this torture again from a law that was not made until after the fact. Meaning this is also a retroactive act, illegal in the state of Texas as per the Texas Constitution. Just like I am being held illegally on probation over the maximum time. Read about this more in this book of a letter. My wife had to be to work early in the am so I was sound asleep. My neighbor from the dead end of my street was with them. They must have gone to his house by mistake. I can not begin to tell how degrading and embarrassing this is. My poor wife and my dogs where so upset it took hours for us all to fall back to sleep.
 
Suzanne Wooten won the election by 5,000 points. I networked for her and did all I could to get this corrupt, unlawful judge out.
 
Guess what else? It is election time and worst Judge in the history of Collin County is up for reelection. Judge CS is being challenged by Suzanne H. Wooten. He is so bad that he is being challenged during a primary and that never happens. His rating is so bad in the I quote, the Collin County Observer in the following:
 
“In Collin County one of the most influential groups is the Bar Association. The lawyers of the local Bar practice their trade in front of elected judges every day - and they form an opinion. Every 2 years, the local bar surveys its members in an attempt to rate every sitting judge.
 
How highly is Judge CS rated by those lawyers who work in his court? Not very high.
This year, CS received the overall lowest rating of any local judge. If this Bar Poll is any indication, the judge will soon need to find another line of work. However, the Bar Poll is not an infallible indicator of re-electability. A good example of the poll missing its mark would be the 2005 primary in which 2 judges (John Barry and Jerry Lewis) won re-election despite dismal Bar Poll ratings.
 
The complete 2007 Bar Poll results are on the internet.
 
I voted against Judge CS. In order to do this in Collin County because no democrats even run here, I had to vote Republican even though I am a registered democrat for 11 years. You would not believe the republican ballet. Line after line of people running for office no one running against them. I can not believe I am living in the middle of America and at the same time what seems to be the most corrupt government as well.
 
Other than that things are as good as they can be. I am painting at a amazing rate considering. I have accomplished so much in the past 10 years in my art it is almost like a miracle with people like Judge CS against me, I am glad I have stayed here in McKinney Texas because it has given myself a chance to prove to people here I am a good guy. I am doing all I can to give back to the community, that is one of the main reasons I do western art only.
 
I recently called my P.O., telling him all of the conditions of all the people involved in my offence. It would blow your mind if you knew all the stuff that went on with me being charged. I could send you a email about how my offence was imposed on me, that would make you say, why is this guy even charged with this offence in the first place?
 
I made a letter concerning the above paragraph and filed it in the 380th. It is now public record. I doubt Judge CS will ever read it. You reap what you sew. Or you could say like John Lennon said "instant carma is gona get you". What ever you believe we all know how we treat others is how we are treated in life.
 
I have had these letters for up to 7 years and have not sent them until 07/23/2007. Although I have many more bazaar letters I have written when I was first put on probation that I typed in the jail. This is the strongest stuff I have in email form. So strong it took me up to 7 years to get angry enough to send it. The newest email I have in this email is over 3 years old.
 
Well this is it. I am going to send you the
 
Ultimate_Complaint_Letter_about_CC_Probation_Department_07_24_2007

And a letter I have been sitting on for many years:

Complant_letter_about_(So Called Therapist)_revised_01_04_07
 
Both are attached for printing on mac or pc. Thank you for reading and at least archiving for the purpose of human rights.
 
Well I did not get it. (Early release.) It should not be called early release in my case, legally. Let me tell you this about Judge CS. Here is a link to the 380:
 

They call Judge CS, "hang em all CS". Over all he seemed ruthless to me. I stated allot that I wrote you in my last letter. He had allot more grey hair then when I saw him last. I do not know how people like him live with them selves.
 
He said that probation was against it. It is because of the law that was made in 1999, my offence was in 1996.
 
My probation officer wrote a letter to the judge that stated he was against me getting early release. The more I think of this letter the angrier I get. I will attach a edited copy to this email. He did say a few nice things though. This letter goes in my permanent records. I went down to the court house to get this. I am going to leave his name out of this for now. I still have doubts about whether or not he is fair or not. If he is not he is really good at fooling me.
 
The Texas constitution says no law will be made retro active! This Law extending my probation can not be used against me legally. Therefore I am being held illegally on probation now for 5months now! as of 12/17/2007.

What shocked me most was that he seemed to have no memory of me. I will say one good thing about him, he said, he did not think it was a good thing that they made the law retro active that would cause me to serve a extra year past the maximum amount of probation. I do not know if I believe him but he did say that. That is Collin County for you applying every law to people no matter how strict or retro active.
 
He may have tried even more illegal stuff against me. I am going to research it and if so my wife and I will have to talk to our lawyer and may have to borrow money to hire him against the judge.
 
I will state this again:
 
#1 I served 1 month more than aloud by law in the county jail.
 
#2 I am being made to serve 1 year more than legally applies to me. No law will be made retro active according to the Texas Constitution. The only way it could be retro active is if it caused no burden to someone. Tell that to people who suffer cruel and unusual punishment every day while on probation for this type of offence. It’s like registration is that not cruel and unusual punishment? Yet it is so called retro active because the law says it is like a fishing license! Bazaar! Every government that has repressed it’s people has fallen! If we keep heading the direction we are heading we will fall.

#3 The law on no early release was made in 1999 and does not apply to me.
These are only two of many laws broken by Judge CS. He tried to take away my deferred Adjudicated in 1998. When my lawyer got me back in court his exact words where " it seems I broke the law ".
 
I do not have the money but if I did I would hire a lawyer and not stop till I set things right. That is all that I wanted to do. I just wanted to give a chance to the system to make things right. It seems to me that fewer an fewer people in judgment over us all cares about right and wrong. If they do this to me they do it to allot of other people unlike me who protests.
 
Thanks for reading and or archiving my info to help me.
 
Proceeding letter: The main reason I am applying for early release is I believe I am being held on probation illegally for 1 year over the maximum amount at the time of my offence.
 
I think if you help me you will be helping everyone in my situation that is made to serve more than the maximum amount of time of probation. I am willing to pay $700.00 to who ever represents me on the 23rd.
 
I am talking about representing a long time, seriously, active ACLU member! Not some Joe of the street! Also I am a half way famous artist amongst modern artists from here to California. I was in a movie and did professional graphic design for the largest skateboard company in the world in the late 1980's. People really like me here.
 
I did it. All this time begging the ACLU to file a motion for me and I did it my self. I simply got the motion from the law library and I filled it out and filed it. I have a court date set and every thing. If there are any lawyers that want to show up that day and help me out that would be great! My court date is at July 23rd 2007 at 9:00am. That’s the 380th district court in McKinney, Texas. I am looking forward to it and hoping it goes well. The end of July will be the last time the court will be on route 5 in McKinney, Texas. It will soon be in the new 2 million dollar court house next to the 200,000,000 million dollar jail. Needless to say as soon as I am off probation I will be moving away from here. That’s the plan at least.
 
To tell you the truth I probably do not need a Lawyer. Either Judge CS of the 380th is going to give me early release or not. The cool thing is I believe my P.O. wants me to get it.

I do not know what is the big deal about helping people out with criminal cases. There are allot of people that are serving time or on probation and parole that do not deserve to be. I believe in a honest and forth right justice system that makes all the right decisions and never punishes people more than they should be punished. The problem is with the highest amount of people supervised by the government whether on probation or in prison and all the other hooks our country puts in you. 1 out of every 9 people in Texas is like that. The highest amount of, prisoners to the system, in the history of the world in this time in our country. The amount of people who suffer more than they should at the hands of our government, is grotesque! Why shouldn’t the ACLU be helping these people?
I do not think there has been any one that has bettered themselves more than me in the history of Collin County probation. I have another art show at the August that means I will be in the Dallas Morning news again. If I was off probation I would never pull punches in my fight for human rights like I do now. I also believe my paintings would sell. One thing is for sure my wife would appreciate it. To me, that is the greatest thing in my life, making my wife happy.
 
I would just appreciate if you all would wish me well at my hearing on July 23rd, 2007 9:00am. I am kind of proud of myself for arranging the whole thing with out a lawyer.
 
As of this Month July, 2007 I will begin serving over 10 years of my legal probation term. I have suffered more than any one that has made it this far. I will be glad to send you emails regarding proof of this. When I was arrested in 1996 I was told by my lawyer and the state of Texas I could only be given a maximum of 10 years probation if I plead guilty. I am being forced to serve more than the max sentence of probation in Collin County, Texas. Before I was placed on deferred adjudicated probation in 1997, I was told the maximum amount of probation I would get was 10 years. So I Plead guilty thinking I would have no problem serving 10 years probation after all I was a law abiding citizen. Little did I know that did not matter and this county makes up there own laws and does what ever it pleases and no one seems to care not even people like the ACLU of Texas. What if I put you in jail and while you where in there I said we changed our mind we decided to extend your sentence from 10 years to 20 years. Probation can be worse than jail. jail is private humiliation, probation is pubic humiliation. This is what is happening to me. I have already had to serve 7 months in the County Jail here even thought the legal amount to be sentenced as a part of probation is 6 months and no one seemed to care. even though I wrote and called people like the ACLU of Texas 100 plus times.

I need a lawyer to go before my judge CS (Collin County) and protest that I am being made to serve a extra year on probation illegally. This could be done several ways. You could ask for early release ect. This could be the last thing I ever ask of you. When I get off probation I plan to move back to California where I was a citizen of before I was made to move here because my wife joined the army. I can not move there on probation because they do not take deferred adjudicated there. You know the law I was charged with does not even exist in California! I have always blamed the army in some way for the trouble I have had here in Collin County. I have always felt as I am being held captive here. I refuse to leave until I finish probation. I met people in the County Jail (of witch I was sentenced to 7 months as a requirement of my probation witch is illegal) that where revoked for nothing after they moved to another state. If you can not help me please feel free to forward this email to someone that can. I figure if a lawyer wanted they could take the case for the one month extra time. I know you could make money from that.
 
This is the letter I sent you around June 28, 2007

.Also I submit this in my legal request once a month with the ACLU.

As of this Month June, 2007 I will begin serving over 10 years of my legal probation term. I have suffered more than any one that has made it this far. I will be glad to send you emails regarding proof of this. When I was arrested in 1996 I was told by my lawyer and the state of Texas I could only be given a maximum of 10 years probation if I plead guilty. I am being forced to serve more than the max sentence of probation in Collin County, Texas. Before I was placed on deferred adjudicated probation in 1997, I was told the maximum amount of probation I would get was 10 years. So I Plead guilty thinking I would have no problem serving 10 years probation after all I was a law abiding citizen. Little did I know that did not matter and this county makes up there own laws and does what ever it pleases and no one seems to care not even people like the ACLU of Texas. What if I put you in jail and while you where in there I said we changed our mind we decided to extend your sentence from 10 years to 20 years. Probation can be worse than jail. jail is private humiliation, probation is pubic humiliation. This is what is happening to me. I have already had to serve 7 months in the County Jail here even thought the legal amount to be sentenced as a part of probation is 6 months and no one seemed to care. even though I wrote and called people like the ACLU of Texas 100 plus times.

I need a lawyer to go before my judge CS (Collin County) and protest that I am being made to serve a extra year on probation illegally. This could be done several ways. You could ask for early release ect. This could be the last thing I ever ask of you. When I get off probation I plan to move back to California where I was a citizen of before I was made to move here because my wife joined the army. I can not move there on probation because they do not take deferred adjudicated there. You know the law I was charged with does not even exist in California! I have always blamed the army in some way for the trouble I have had here in Collin County. I have always felt as I am being held captive here. I refuse to leave until I finish probation. I met people in the County Jail (of witch I was sentenced to 7 months as a requirement of my probation witch is illegal) that where revoked for nothing after they moved to another state. If you can not help me please feel free to forward this email to someone that can. I figure if a lawyer wanted they could take the case for the one month extra time. I know you could make money from that.
 
If you are on probation in Collin County you are forced to pay for and attend things like psycho therapy (witch should be a violation of religious rights) I have always said any church pastor would be better than having to submit to godless psychology. Then there are all the support groups and other companies that sell things to the Collin County Probation department. It is a huge scam! You will actually find things advertised in the phone book that are not advertised any where else that would be required by people on probation in Collin County. Like polygraphists. It goes on and on the bottom line is these companies depend on making a prophet from people on probation and this is extremely wrong and can only lead to reaping that witch is sown. By doing this you set up people on probation to having to pay for programs they do not need so that probation officers can ask for special favors from these companies like revoking someone they don’t like or harassing someone they suspect of wrong doing falsely. Only the companies that co-operate with the probation department would get the referrals or in other words money from poor people. People are made to attend things like psycho therapy here in Collin County Texas for ten years even if they do not require it. That costs $120.00 a month, $1040.00 a year. Why would a psycho therapist discharge someone if they could make money off of them? There is even talk of extending probation from 10 years to 20 years. This can not be legal. If you plead to get probation 10 years ago and all of a sudden 10 years latter they say we just decided to extend you for 10 more years so these type companies like physiotherapy could make more money. I hope you can see how wrong this is and how it hurts our community.

I wrote the following about my experience with the probation officer: MS,
I was at the probation department waiting to see MS as always for up to and beyond one hour, as always. I was trying to get people to vote for a bill. It was a bill to stop people from being revoked for no reason at all, and I was trying to get people to vote against it. I have learned that most people in the waiting room of the probation office are too negative to try to help. MS got this paper (about the bill) from some one I gave it to. This is a problem I have had with her latter, I never gave that paper to her, so what right does she have to legally possess it or and especially to use it against me? Like this letter for instance. So just after she found out about my paper, and the 2 complaints I made about her I walked into her office and she just began to yell at me and did not stop for a hour and a half.
Now stop. At this point there was nothing I could do or say to stop her from trying to destroy me. The next time I saw her she seemed to have the conditions of my probation memorized. Understand that from this moment on MS had decided to do everything in her power to revoke my probation. I could write a book on how many other time MS has yelled at me in her office for a hour or more unfairly and unrighteously even on many occasions accusing me of things I never did or even have knowledge of doing. Accusing me of being a criminal that is absolutely absurd and anyone of the thousands of friends and relatives I have would testified to this. My record speaks against that. One thing that is true every time MS accuses me of something I never did, like the mail fraud thing for instance, my wife becomes accused by her as taking part in criminal behavior. My wife has a advantage over me she has a customer service job and is well known by thousands of local people here in Texas. Anyone that has met my wife one time would testify that this is absolutely absurd. I believe this is a testimony, of how these false accusations that MS has made against me, are out and out lies. My point is that since I made these complaints to BH at that point I was put on a list in MS’s mind. I have heard that once MS decides she wants to revoke your probation nothing will stop her. After reading this to put it as simply as I can I have complained about MS so many times to her superiority's and to the ACLU, to Senators, Congress and the like that I believe she has become beyond reason. You may say, then it is your fault. I happen to love my country so much (my wife is a army specialist 3 years active duty 3-4 years reserve) that I will stand up for my constitutional and human rights. And that is freedom in action. That is being a good American. Without people like me there would be no America. Hey my wife and I are both from Connecticut where you are well schooled in the sacrifices our Fore Fathers made. When MS speaks of my wife in anyway it is in a hateful way or in a disrespectful way and always with a dirty look.

In November of 2003, MS insisted that I go to the polygrapher of her choice. After many complaints, I finally called Elena Funch and complained to her about the polygraph referral. About a week later (So Called Therapist) gave me a list of polygraphers to choose from. (this is the way this should be done, I also think this info should be kept from the P.O. Until after the appointment, in fact the identity of the polygrapher should never be reveled to the P.O., to keep the P.O. From having influence over the polygrapher ) MS has caused (So Called Therapist) and I to have problems since I complained about her in the summer of 2003. I mention this because I believe this is one of those things that MS got mad at me for and she chose to hate me even more for. She did not like me calling Elena Funch and complaining about the lack of choice I had.

My next point is my health. Doctor Tsang of McKinney diagnosed me with a ulcer. I have to take Nexium constantly that could cause side affects. Since I have been on deferred adjudicated probation (not the same as a conviction), my health has been going bad. Every ailment I have I did not have before probation. My eyes were perfect before I was sentenced to jail and almost as soon as I was released from jail they went bad. Skin problem like psoriasis I never had before jail and I have now.
Please understand that since this paper is up to or more than 8 pages long and took so long to write, my wife did not help me write this at all, except for spelling and some typing. Also keep in mind that the person that wrote this is someone who MS has accuses of being mentally ill. As you read through this, always keep the theme of this letter and compare it to every sentence you read. It all has to do with why my wife and I believe it would be only fair and lawful that I have a new probation officer. Not to mention the fact that my wife and I have had to endure over a year of suffering because of MS’s uncalled for hatred against my wife and I. The Judge knew, I should not go to prison, and that is why he gave me probation. MS disregarding that, wants to send me for prison for irrational hatred towards my wife and I. Keep in mind my offense took place in 1996 that was more than 8 years ago.
When MS started to work for the Plano office of Collin County probation department, I knew about it. I heard many stories while she worked for Plano probation from other people on probation that MS was very strict. The Story’s I remember most during that time came from people in my group. There are two that have stuck in my memory, one guy was a black young man from out of state and he was trying to get back to his family, he was 20 years old. He was driven to threaten MS, and was given a new probation officer. He said something to her like "how do you go about getting a probation officer beat up?". I believe she manipulated him so that he threatened her, because he was in my group at least 6 months and I tried to figure out why he would threaten her. My evaluation of this young man was that he was a good guy, a patient guy, and not the type that would threaten someone. Then there was R, every day that guy would come to group he would complain about MS till he was almost crying. I was amazed at the amount of restrictions that was on him and the bazaar way that she would interact with him. I could not imagine any one treating someone as unfairly as she treated him. She made that guy take so many polygraphs it seemed if anything at least unconstitutional. I believe it was wrong and not proper procedure to transfer MS. It is rare that any company would transfer anyone especially someone as controversial as her. So all these things I heard long before MS was transferred to the McKinney Texas.

First, I would like to say out of all the probation officers I have ever had or have ever heard of anyone else having, I’ve never had knowledge of this kind of inhuman treatment and unconstitutional treatment. I’ve talked to a lot of people that have probation officers and have never heard of this type of treatment of anyone. I have spent many hours at the law library and out of the research I’ve done, I have never heard of such appalling conditions under any probation or parole officer.

The first time I complained about MS approximately April 2003, I complained to BH who is the supervisor for McKinney Probation Office. MS became my probation officer the summer of 2002. Up until I complained to BH in April of 2003, I have never had a problem with her. I am sure the records will reflect this. Including (So Called Therapist)s records as well. In fact for that one year, I did not have to take any polygraphs or plathismographs or psychological tests. That means that instead of spending $4000.00 in two years of having MS as a probation officer. I have actually spent $4000.00 in one year (the summer of 2003 to the summer of 2004) on polygraphs or plathismographs or psychological tests and urine tests. On July 07 2003 MS was the first one to tell me I needed another plathismograph at $250.00 she smiled when she said that. Why would she be the first one to tell me, my Therapist should have, she just enjoyed causing me to become poorer. I complained to BH about two things the first was, that MS did a visit to my home just before my wife and I purchased a home near Melissa. This was the month of February 2003 approximately. I was living in a apartment at the time. She and two police officers came to my home and knocked on the door and when I answered the door I did as I always do and looked out the peep hole. I always do this as to avoid answering the door to a child or a solicitor. When I did this the peep hole was covered. This was the first thing I complained about concerning MS to BH. The second thing was that MS said that my wife, my wife (since 1988 FYI) was not my chaperon. You have to understand I have been on probation since 1997 summer, (So Called Therapist) has been my therapist since 1998 summer ((So Called Therapist)’s help is one reason I have turned my life around. The main reason is I have done it, is for myself, (So Called Therapist) has helped me see that clearer) when MS became a probation officer in Plano she instituted a woman therapist as a chaperon approver, only. Before that in 1999 (So Called Therapist) had a chaperon program that cost three hundred dollars that my wife and I went through to become a chaperon.

The day after I complained about her I was in the waiting room at the McKinney Probation Department, this is a fact. I do not want to face this myself. But since MS has been my P.O. My ulcer acts up in ways I can not describe. MS is well known for changing her moods from happy to sad drastically and extremely mean to nice to indifferent to degrading. Just being in her office upsets my stomach her walls are full of police badges, warrant photos of sex offenders, and she even has a huge sign that says something like: there is a sex offender living here. You can barley see the walls in her office because of all the cut out pictures and things that she believes so important she must tape on her walls. To me this is a sign of immaturity, and a lack of responsible behavior, in short a unsound mind. She does not have to say a word, just sitting in her office makes me want to throw up. She has a book shelf full of books like: The Evil that Men Do. I always get the impression that she hates men and manliness.

Just after I complained about her the first time, (This took place on May 23 2003) I was in her office and she said that she had many gay friends that are married and that call her, Even though they are no longer on her case load. I believe that she was implying that she thought that it would be good if I acted gay in front of her and that she would find that personally gratifying. Just after she told me about her gay friends she said I think you are going to make it on probation. It was as if she was saying you will make it on probation if you act gay. She said her gay friends call her Mom.
I can not eat sometimes because of how mean she is to me. I have come to realize that my ulcer becoming unbearable, is in direct relation to meeting with MS. It feels like I am going to pass out and throw up my guts. This could and has lasted up to a month. MS has a way of making a mountain out of a mole hill as anyone will tell you that knows her. Also her belief in the old Communist credo : The end justifies the means, in other words it is OK to lie and behave criminally to reach your goal. This will affect any one mentally. I do not want to end up like Jerry Lewis and almost die of a ulcer.
Then there is my blood pressure problem that did not exist before MS became my P.O.. When I took my Plathismograph the doctor said my blood pressure was so high he said that I should check my blood pressure every day for a month. (I must mention that I showed no arousal to children on my Plathismograph.) My last polygraph with, he said my pulse rate was 192 per minute. I blame MS for this instance of almost having a heart attack in the poly graph chair. She built up so much fear and anxiety leading to that polygraph that I could barely walk from the car to the office with my wife. I also have high cholesterol due to my bad appetite. I do not want to die of a heart attach at the age of 43 because of the inhumane manipulation I have to deal with on a moment to moment basis. I am a good, good man and do not deserve this. I have become such a good person because I chose to, for the past 6 years especially. I am at a peak. I have not only changed on the inside but on the out. I would challenge anyone that knew me in the winter of 1996 and has not seen me since, to even recognize me now. I should be rewarded for my behavior and encouraged, but the opposite with MS is true. So I am making a plea for myself for the good of my community and for the good of my country, for the thousands of fans of my art and animation’s, for all of my friends at the Collin County Community College (of whom I am a straight A student), to my huge Sicilian family, and my huge church family spread all over the United States. Ask my friends on the Middletown Police Force (my home town in Connecticut). These friends of mine where also friends of my father who retired a police officer there. FV and BB are their names. Ask them if they agree with MS in that I am a criminal. BB was my janitor in my grade school (St. Johns School Middletown Connecticut). Growing up as a cop’s son is all I need to say. A friend of mine once described my dad as: the general.

The next reason I believe I should have a new P.O. Is : the relationship I have with my therapist. I have been going to (So Called Therapist) since the summer of 1998 and have not missed one single session in six years that equals about 300 meetings. Since MS has become my P.O. (So Called Therapist) has done all he can to avoid treating me unfairly. (So Called Therapist) has with great pane has joined together with MS unwillingly, in her quest to destroy me utterly, after over one year of pressure from her. When JW was my P.O. The problem with my probation was MHMR harassed him so much he felt no choice but to try to revoke my probation. I know and have written many letters to ACLU, to Senators, Congress and Judges to point out this flaw in the system. Now it is the other way around. Basically MS has stopped me from receiving real therapy from (So Called Therapist) as much as she can. She has turned (So Called Therapist) into a interrogator instead of a therapist. Even though it is plain to see (So Called Therapist) does not believe at all in what is coming out of his mouth. I have often described (So Called Therapist) to my wife as speaking MS’s words and not his own. If the P.O. has any say over referral's to therapists that would be a travesty of justice, I just want to say that. I do not know how the problem of a therapist having undo influence over the probation officer, or the probation officer having undo influence over the therapist can be resolved. This is a great flaw in the system. Therapists are not cops and cops not therapists nor should they be. The problem between MS and I, is she uses this flaw in the system against me to the fullest. I hope you good people could find a way. I believe this would be a step toward the constitutional rights and human rights of non habitual offenders. I have heard of stories of MS stalking people and invading their privacy and slandering people in group.

The next and last reason I believe I should have a new P.O. Is : The fact that I have spent approximately $4000.00 in the one year since MS has been my P.O. On tests like Polygraphs, Plathismographs, Urine tests, Physiological tests. This is on top of the $2500.00 of standard fees I pay every year. That equals $9,000.00 in 2 years since MS has been my P.O.. It is driving my wife and I to poverty very quickly. We struggle for no reason to keep our first home and to get me through college. I say for no reason because I have learned over the past year that when MS gets mad at me she orders me to take , Plathismographs, Urine tests, Physiological tests. I actually wrote some one on the A Team (lawyers against the use of Plathismographs in court) when MS had first become my P.O.I mentioned that she was making me take a lot of tests at cost to my wife and I. A A Team representative wrote me back and said the only reason she did this was because she can. At that time I did not believe it. Now I see it is exactly that. In fact just recently I have been given absolute proof of this. MS called my house on July 27th 2004 at 9:30 am I was at Class at the time. I got home about 1 p.m. I tried through out the day to call MS back I left two messages on her voice mail. I tried to call her back 6 times. Finally I called the secretary as directed in her voice mail. The secretary told me there was no way I could leave a message with her. Out of frustration and because the business day was about to close I called BH and left a message with him that MS called me and to please relay the message to her. I played the message she left on my machine during the message. The very next meeting I had with MS on 08/04/04. She was so combative that the entire time I was in her office she tried to turn everything I said against me like I was insulting her. For instance I said "Your the boss". She said I was insulting her there was a pause and she gave me the dirtiest look. She said I had to take a polygraph by the end of the month. She also made me take a urine test. Keep in mind the first thing she mentioned when I sat in her office was the message I left on BH voice mail. This made her so angry that all of the following that took place after those first words were as a result of her anger. All I was trying to do was return her phone call not make her angry. She said that her and (So Called Therapist) agreed 7 months ago that I was to take a polygraph in 8 months (This was never mentioned to me). As soon as she said this I knew something was wrong because it is common practice that 90 days notice is given before a polygraph is taken. Another red flag I got from this was that the polygraph I took on Feb 16, 2004 was a maintenance polygraph that asked questions like - Have you violated any conditions of your probation and Have you lied to your probation officer (which I passed). In other words another polygraph was not necessary. So here it is August 2004 and I’m taking another polygraph. Although the polygraph I took in August was a specific issues polygraph, the questions were already covered by the maintenance polygraph I took in February. This is further proof that the reason I was forced to take this test was because MS felt I complained about her by leaving the message on BH voice mail and was mad at me because of that. To make a long story short I passed the polygraph on 8-24-04. If this is not absolute proof that MS forces me to take unnecessary tests simply to take money from my wife and I and to strike fear into my wife and I. Also I would like to add in closing is that I was on low income assistance about a year and a half before MS took over my case and in one of her fits of anger against me she took that low income assistance away from me June 6th 2003. I remember that day when she told me she was taking my assistance away, she slightly smirked at me, as if that gave her pleasure. I would like to state that this letter gives me no pleasure. In fact it makes me sick to my stomach. My father was a cop, do you think I would gain pleasure from talking against my father who I loved? Who I cried at his funeral? My family will tell you, my father would protect me with his life if he could.

I have had MS interrupt my college so many times that it has caused me to have a huge handicap in my learning process. For instance on June 5, 2003 I called (So Called Therapist) from the Collin County Community College and told him that I could not go to group on Monday nights because I have a class. (So Called Therapist) said it would be okay for me to go to another group. I have mentioned this in group and the only way she could have found out that I was going to switch groups is if someone in group told her. When MS found out she told (So Called Therapist) that I could not do that and she called the College to make sure I was not lying. Depending on what she said and who she spoke to, it could hurt my ability to get a good education. For that entire semester, I had to show up late for class and hour and a half on Mondays because of MS. This exact same thing occurred in the Spring semester of 2004. Again for the entire semester I had to show up late for the class an hour and a half. Many times I have seen group members, just recently, change their group times (simply because they did not have her as a probation officer). I spoke to one of the campus police and he mentioned to me that MS had called the campus police main office and sounded irate. MS has violated my civil rights and constitutional rights as an American by not allowing me to attend College when class is in session. I have long suspected that she gets her clients that attend the same group as me to talk about things I say in group. This is against the rules of group, no one is suppose to talk about anyone in group outside of group. (I know this because I verified with (So Called Therapist) if he was the one who told her I was going to have to switch groups) No matter what (So Called Therapist) said, because of the time line, it would have been impossible for MS to have found out from (So Called Therapist). (but he did not tell her) before she called campus police. MS in another instance when I met with her, I suspect that a group member told her I missed a group (because I had a flat tire). I suspect that a group member told her because at the time I believe it was to soon for (So Called Therapist) to have told her. MS has tried to get me to talk about other group members in her office. In fact, after MS had become my probation officer she tried to get me to talk about one group member in specific this person had almost been revoked several times. I have voiced in group many times, how I did not think this person should be revoked. She said to me, in getting to try to get me to talk about this person, she said something like: at least I didn’t revoke his probation and she mentioned his name quietly. After several times of me saying to her that I was not allowed to talk about group members outside of group she stopped asking me to talk about others in group. She got mad at me, for not being willing to talk about people in group out side of group, and has been ever since. In fact, it is one of the sick reasons she wants to revoke my probation. I believe that this is another early example of how MS would get mad at me for no reason at all. Also, in May 2, 2004, she accused me of missing a group with (So Called Therapist). I had asked (So Called Therapist) 3 months ahead of time. I had finals at the college, and I asked him if it was okay if I missed that day, and do a makeup. He said it was okay. Why would she ask me if I missed a group when I had arranged to miss the group 3 months ahead of time. The only reason she would accuse me of missing a group without permission is if she found out from another group member and not (So Called Therapist). In the spring of 2004 MS continually asks me if I have gotten any speeding tickets on my motorcycle. Some of the guys in group tease me about riding my motorcycle and possible speeding. She kept asking me if I got any speeding tickets on my motorcycle until the day I said in the lobby to the group members while we were waiting for group to begin that I suspected someone of telling MS that I was speeding on my motorcycle. From that day in June 2004 MS never asked me if I had a speeding ticket again.

MS has made me wait up to one hour and a half in the waiting room of the McKinney Probation office. Every time I was made to wait a long time was in direct relation to her time of frustration and anger over not being able to find a reason to revoke my probation. Ask BH how many times I sat and starred at him, until he had to tell MS I was waiting for long periods of time.

MS continually brings up things from the first year I was on probation. After JW tried to revoke my probation, my probation was reset and started over again. That is why I have been on probation since summer 1997 and will not be off probation until 2008. In the Judge CS’s own words I was to have a fresh start with a clean slate.

Since I live in Collin County and do not live in the city of McKinney or any other city in Collin County. And I register with the County Sheriff’s Department, Paul Holland. Doesn’t that mean I do not have to report to any specific Probation Office in Collin County? I know of other people that live in the county and report to Plano. Is it possible to transfer me to Plano simply for this reason? It would not be an inconvenience since I go to College at Spring Creek in Plano. I could easily report to the probation before or after classes. Also, (So Called Therapist) my therapist is located in Plano.
In June of 2003 MS asked me to make a letter of complaint to BH to get a new probation officer. I looked at her and said, I would never complain about her as long as I live. When I said this she smiled as if happy with this response. She felt that in her quest of vengeance she had silenced me and taken away my free speech. My wife wrote the letter but kept it free of any complaints. So you can imagine, I am at my wits end about having to write this letter. I have never felt as if I am a threat to MS, reality is it is the other way around. The problem with her is she does not face reality. I believe the only reason MS does not want me to go on the Internet is because she does not want me to use my freedom of speech against her. MS gives speeches at a rape crisis center. Is this a conflict of interest? Is this why she is so defensive? Is someone who gives speeches at a rape crisis center, and is a woman P.O., and meets with mostly men to talk about sex, appropriate? I know she gives speeches for a rape crisis center because I heard her say this on the phone while I was in her office on January 12 2004. She was talking to someone about speaking at his church for him she said, I will speak as I do for the rape crisis center.

Understand that there is nothing in this letter that can not be at least verified by dates in the probation records, kept by the probation office. There are many, many things I suspect MS of doing that could probably be proved by making many witnesses come before the judge and hiring a detective. I do not know why I do not go on and on about the many things I suspect her of doing against my wife and I she has many times accused me of things I have not done or would know how to do. I will say this one thing though. I was in her office June 29 2003 and she was speaking of my past life she said "it’s a miracle you are still alive". She said this three times loudly. This was I believe a threat against my life. I have not lived a dangerous life so why would anyone say this to me? Especially with such sincerity. October 09 2003 MS showed up at my house at 6 am with two sheriffs who I believe where filled with lies MS had told them about me. The cops banged so loudly on my door it knocked pictures off my wall. As I looked out the window to see who it was the cop was standing there with his hand on his holster as if ready to draw. She upset my poor wife (the Army veteran) so much she cried after they left. My wife since 1988, my only wife ever and I am her only husband ever, that is a direct testimony of who I am, a good man. My wife would have never had done so good in the army with out me or done so well in college without me. She has her associates degree and continues to attend college with me today. And a honorable discharge, with a wall full of awards she got in the army. Call Pastor Costello at the Fundamental Bible Church in Los Osos, California and ask him if he thinks I am a criminal, like MS claims. My wife and I moved there to help the ministry. My wife has lead a spotless life with out blame with not even so much as a parking ticket on her record.
I would like to close this letter with the following statements. I have paid my dues in my life as a cop’s son. My dad like me had people that blamed him for their problems. There was even a front page story in the Middletown Press, the local newspaper in Connecticut. The story read about a man that was about to go to prison because my dad arrested him. He screamed and said he would kill my dad and his family. My dad’s back was hurt while on duty two times that I know of, once it was because of a beating he took by a criminal. This caused him to take a desk job and he was assigned to records for so many years. Call the Middletown Police Force in Middletown Connecticut to verify any of this. Many times growing up in Middletown Connecticut I became a victim of criminals because my dad was a cop. The reason I am telling you this is to illustrate how I hate crime as much as anyone in the legal system, if not more. In reference to this letter I am trying to prove that MS is not stating the truth when she claims I am a criminal or someone that thinks crime is OK.
Many times I had my life threatened because my dad was a cop. One time I had my life threatened by a gang of dudes while living at 634 Main St. (a bad neighbor hood at that time). Many times I had my life threatened by convicts, too many to remember in number. The one time I had my life threatened that I will never forget is as follows: I was living at the YMCA in my late teens around 1980. Suddenly this dude I had drank with a couple of time, who I thought was a friend, comes barging in my room. He pulled out a huge pistol, like a 44 magnum, and pointed in right at my chest. He was frantic and on the verge of tears. He was with his friend. He was deaf and had a brother who was deaf too. I met his brother once. He was able to communicate to me, through writing, that his brother was arrested for drugs. He was going to kill me in protest of his brothers death. I was by some miracle able to talk him out of it by helping him to see my dad was not the arresting officer and why would he blame me. Shortly after this I had a nervous breakdown. Do not let any one tell you I am a criminal, I have been raised to hate crime.

Just after I wrote this letter MS ordered me to take a Physciatric Evaluation that cost me over $750.00. This was the last thing I had to do before BH Huges would give me a new probation officer. I have past many polygraphs (I believe to be unconstitutional to make me take over and over, and pay for $250.00 each) and have been doing good ever since then to this day 07/21/2007.
Thanks,
 
These are some old letters I have touched up a little here and there:

To: anyone out there that is willing to help out a good guy.

I am enclosing a copy of the actual paper that I signed the day I plead guilty to get deferred adjudicated probation. The most crazy thing I see is how much different it is from the indictment. I don’t think it merits aggravated sexual assault legally. To my brothers and sisters at ACLU in Conn. and NY city. Please don’t say you can’t help me. I represent what is wrong with the justice system of America. I believe that 99% of Americans have either committed some kind of sex crime or fantasized about such. And I am told by my "psychotherapist" and other so called experts on the subject that to fantasize of something is 1 step away from doing it. If America had mind police you would have to put bars around the whole country. I realize others countries want to join on the sex crime rampage but can’t because they are poor and miserable. Well you know what if we keep condemning people to prison and death at our present rate (they are one in the same) we will be just like them. So build more schools not prisons.

I just past a polygraph that said I never forced anyone to have sex. I would be willing to take a polygraph to answer whether or not, my victim, X gave me every intention that what I did was consensual. It was never apparent to me latter that that my victim regretted it. Does that mean I, a model citizen, even at times in my life a hero should go to prison for up to 99 years. Please understand as in every letter I write like this, I could write a book on all the reasons I should not have done what I did and looking back I can not think of one reason that isn’t distorted that I should have.
Dear Good people at ACLU,

I am sending you this letter I wrote before my first hearing.

I gave this letter to my Layer as soon as I hired him (my lawyer) If you liked my last
letter concerning reasons I could sue Collin County. This would be of great interest to a
layer that would have interest in taking my case. As with every letter I have sent you I
give you Complete freedom to use said correspondences in any way that would be helpful to
my wife, my family and myself, and first and foremost my Lord.
Sincerely,

Dear Ladies and Gentlemen of the A.C.L.U.,

In my past letters I have hinted towards suing Collin County. I just assumed my letters would be read. I would therefore like to list all the reasons I think I could sue Collin County and the State of Texas.
#1. I believe it was wrong to use the law against me that because my victim X was over 65 years old, is there fore considered a Minor in the eyes of Texas. My Lawyer told me if I plead (HS) not guilty and they proved that I did what I did it would be considered Aggravated Sexual assault. Even though my victim X it was consensual. May God strike me dead if I’m lying this only happened once for about 1 minute half way I looked up at my victim and said do you like this person said in a southern accent "that’s real nice" I remember this person sounded funny because this person had chewing tobacco in this person’s mouth.

#2.I was sentence to a total of 7 months to the local county jail. The Law says you can only be sentenced to a maximum of 6 months as a addition to and a condition of probation.

#3. Although I’m on deferred adjudicated probation and by law I am not supposed to be put on a monitor I was.

#4. I don’t think I should have to register as a sex offender because I am on deferred adjudicated probation, and because I am a first and only offender.

#5. just recently my probation officer handed me a form that out line every time I spend 2 cent how much money I make, how much my wife makes every thing I do not feel I have to fill this out.
#6. I am made to pay $35.00 a week for a therapist (mental) and $200.00 a year for polygraphs, $45.00 a week for P.O. and 2 drug test a year.

And what ever else you dudes want to sue for I don’t care. I’ll go as public as you want to go. I am a fairly well known artiest.

Dear Ladies and Gentlemen of the A.C.L.U.,

In my past letters I have hinted towards suing Collin County. I just assumed my letters would be read. I would therefore like to list all the reasons I think I could sue Collin County and the State of Texas.
. The Law says you can only be sentenced to a maximum of 6 months a condition of probation.
#3. Although I’m on deferred adjudicated probation and by law I am not to be put on monitor.
 
To: The Honorable Judge CS
Collin County Court House
380th District Court
210 S. McDonald St.
McKinney, TX
75070
 
First I would like to request a meeting with you sir. I would like my wife to be present.
Second I would like to have my probation time shortened as(a) I have been doing good in therapy and following all of my requirements.

Third I would to be taken off specialized caseload see 2nd request.

Fourth If my 3rd request is not granted I would like # 17 of my conditions of probation to be no more. It is unreasonable bordering on unconstitutional to ask anyone not to use the Internet in today’s society. If you will not grant this I would like to know exactly why Mr. JW requested to have this condition applied to me. Please send this in writing to me. Mr. JW’s work ethics speak for itself. I’m an American sir my father served during Vietnam, My Grandfather who is dieing now served in world war 2, My wife’s 8 years were up on August 21st 2001 which she has received a honorable discharge hanging on my wall. See request #2(a). My grandfather and grandmother  died since then I believe because it was too much for them to see me on probation and suffering the way I do every day. In other words probation killed my grandparents and is killing my wife and I a little every day.
Fifth I would I would like to be relocated to my wife (of twenty years of marriage our first and only marriage) and my home state of Connecticut. My wives’ Father, my Grandmother, have died since I have been on probation and we have been unable to see them because of lack of funds before they passed away. See request #2(a).

Thank you Judge,
 
approved by the specialized Caseload program (I could not be guilty of this of sexual arousal as ordered by the court; (after the polygraph I admitted to being in a store and asking a clerk if there was a 3dfx patch for a game I was considering purchasing he said he would check and while I was in the store he accessed the Internet and checked for a patch and told me there was none. This is why JW told me I was going to be violated for my probation. I think this speaks for it self.
No one has ever completed the program that I was in at MHMR in McKinney, Texas. (MHMR no longer does sex offender case load in McKinney, Texas in a large part of the many letter I wrote in protest mostly from the Collin County Jail)My statements are in ( ). Violation 1) that the defendant has failed to participate in a sexual abuse program approved by the specialized Caseload program (I could not be guilty of this because I never missed one single group meeting or individual session,...ever!) and complete the same to the full satisfaction of the supervising officer and treatment staff of the program, ( this is a absurd statement because no one has ever completed the program that I was in at MHMR

McKinney, if I am being Violated for this after only being in the program for approximately 9 months and none has completed the program for the 6 years it has been in existence, that means I am in compliance to this) fully complying with all program requirements.( I was extremely co-operative with the staff I went out of my way to complete all the home work assignments I even went out of my way to do extra work I will have given you a diskette with all most all of the homework and writings I completed for MHMR please feel free to read them. I was told by
one of the group therapists 6 months ago that I would be kicked out of the group if I failed another polygraph. The polygraph is supposed to be taken in order to tell if the group member is co-operating with the therapist by telling the truth. This is not required in my Specialized caseload program rules. Rule number 7) says I’m only to submit to a polygraph if recommended by the probation officer to tell if I am telling the truth it does not say the therapist can tell me to take one. JW was unaware of me being told by the program to take a polygraph. He did not know about the first test until after I took it, and only a week before I was scheduled to take the second one. I failed the seconded one and three weeks latter I was kicked out of the group. The file date on the probation revocation notice is on Monday the 8th of June I was not kicked out of group until the following Wednesday the 10th of June. * I did not lie on the polygraphs * I took as anyone that knows me knows I am easily stressed out. I have sat in the doctors office many times to calm down so I could be retested for my blood pressure because the first time I took it it would be to high then when I sat alone and was told to stay calm it would be normal.Even JW who was at my second polygraph told me I looked very stressed out in front of my wife. As far as I know this is the only thing I did that would be why I was dismissed from the group. I was also told one time I made unnecessary comments in group. And I was late completing my layout one time. The questions on the polygraph had to do with my probation conditions witch I can say I never violated. Questions like where you in sexual contact with anyone over the age of 65 or under the age of 18, where you on the Internet for the purpose of sexual arousment. I was told the biggest problem with my first poly was where you on the Internet after October 1st, that was when I was officially told not to by special conditions ordered by the judge on that date. I was not nor have been on the net for sexual arousal sinse then because even before then we change the password and only my wife knows it. One way to prove this would be to find a time our computer was online while my wife was at work. Actually my wife has been away from home for two weeks and if you could show this computer online during that time I would be lying. Another way would be there are ways to get into a computer and show everything that has been done on that computer since we have owned it. I have not viewed porn or read porn on my computer sinse the arrest over two years ago. The second test I was told the biggest problem was on the questions discussed prior to the test I guess that would be the question that was asked like: "Did you tell the complete truth on the today" I was asked about 20-30 questions before the polygraph took place they where like how many times did you masturbate allot of questions about cognitive distortions, sexual affairs, porn, exposing yourself in public, telling the truth to the therapist so many questions I can not remember. You should get copies of these polygraphs if you need to. One more thing about the poly they seemed to make rules as they went along like you have to take a polygraph with in the first three months of group and if you fail that you have to take another as far as I know I was the first person to be subjected to these new rules and at the same time others in the group did not do this I believe now that the Therapist and the probation officer did not like what I did "my offense I was discriminated against because of it. In fact the same therapist who came up with the idea of kicking me out of group after I failed my second poly "Wayne" was the one who told me his grandmother had home health and if anyone did what I did to her he would kill them.) Program participation is defined as attendance to all meetings (I did this one time I was late in nine months) prompt payment of fees, (I did this I even paid for my two polygraphs on time) admission of responsibility for his/her offense, (I’m assuming this means to admit you are guilty if so I did this from my first day in group and by the second week in group I completed my sexual autobiography to include my victim X as my victim. Also I have stated over and over that what I did was wrong. Even after I would say this JW and TM* my therapist * would say I did not say this.) and progress toward reasonable treatment goals as ordered by the court; (I don’t know what this means, if it means I was to complete special goals ordered by the court I never had any. If it means I was to complete goals set by the group itself this is kind of a absurd statement because in the 6-7 years of the groups existence in MHMR McKinney no one has ever completed the program and it is only supposed to last approximately 2 and 1/2 years. There fore no one could have completed any of the stages on time or even close to the requirements)
Other things I would like to add to what I think of this so called therapy, number one is that I disagree with the whole concept of Psychology from a religious standpoint. I will include a document with this paper called the Bible vs Psychology THE WORD OF GOD VS THE WORDS OF MEN. This was written by the church I attended and have supported for about 8 years now. I don’t think it is fair to force people into this type of thinking have told TMand JW this from almost the first day I have attended this group. Never the less I have submitted to this as much as I can many times maybe more than anyone ever has. I have always refused to lie in group though. It is a known fact in my group that you must lie and say terrible things about yourself although they are not true. Or if a therapist says things about you that is not true you must agree with them and I have always refused to do this. When I first started attending the group it was the worst at that time everyone in the group especially Wayne insisted that I was gay and that I need to divorce my wife as soon as possible and live a gay lifestyle. This confused me to no end and one month latter I ended up meeting a bi-sexual man (age 42) over the Internet and had sexual contact with him one time for about 2 hours. That was what I thought was the reason I was ordered to stay off the Internet. One time I was in JW’s office and he said I was kicked of the net because I would try to contact children. This is typical of JW to say something like this. The reason he said this is because I said (being sarcastic) if I was playing a interactive gave on the net and I typed something like that was a good game and there was someone laying that game under the age of 18 would that be contact to my constant surprise he said yes. I never contacted anyone under the age of 18 or over the age of 65 the entire time I was on the Internet nor ever desired to. I have never cursed while on the Internet ever I have always purposed myself to do this because of so many people that curse I have never paid money for any type of porn on the Internet ever. The only thing I did while I was on probation on the Internet before I was ordered to stay off was sign up with gay rights groups and gay dating services and gay chat sites these were all free and there was no pornography on any of these sites. I think the problem with my therapists and JW has always been they have no knowledge of computers at all. One more thing about group is almost every group the therapist curse repeatedly I find this very offensive and find it had to interact in this type of environment.

Number 2) that the defendant has failed to not possess any computer , or computerized materials or access the internet. I met with JW on Wednesday and he said that the reason I was being violated is because I was not telling things to my therapist and to him that I should have. He refereed to the incident at the computer store and said I should have told him about that I told him that I did not think it was significant enough to tell him. He insisted that I was on the Internet whether it was by coercing my wife to be on the Internet or by the incident in the store. Never the less I was not. I fail to see how by me not telling every last detail of my life would put me in violation of my probation. Every time I meet with JW I tell him the truth no matter how embarrassing it is, almost every meeting with him he asks me when was the last time you had cognitive distortions, I will tell him the truth. I can say when ever asked a question by JW I answer with the truth. I don’t find in my probation orders that I need to volunteer every detail of my life I only see it says I must tell the truth. He also brought up the incident about one of the questions on the polygraph one of the multiple questions before the test started there was about thirty. One of the questions I was asked when was the last time I masturbated and what where some of the thoughts I had. I told the polygraph that I had a thought about someone at worked with and he was about thirty years old a male it is true it was one of the thoughts not fantasies I had during masturbation it was the first time I had one like that ever. JW is trying to say I was hiding this information by not telling him about it sooner how could I tell him of it when it was the first time. JW also told me that TMwould also be there and he would be there. TMhas told me on several occasions that she thought I had mental problems and should be in inpatient treatment. I disagree with that and anyone that knows me can see that I felt it worth mentioning though. TMwas my therapist at MHMR. TMand I never seemed to get along every time we had a individual session she would start shouting at me. I want to make sure I write this down that the head therapist Donna said to me that the group was not meeting my needs and that is why I was being dismissed from the group. I was given a list of 4 different therapists to contact as a referral apparently there can be personality conflicts that would justify me leaving one group and going to another. Even though I have been asking JW to go to another therapist for a long time now he would always refuse my request. Also I have been requesting to move witch he has also denied me. I had a meeting in witch I requested to move back to Connecticut about 8 months ago witch I was refused. I have requested to move to another county even to get away from JW and MHMR and it was always denied me.
Here are some other points you may find helpful for the trial that I have thought of with the help of talking with my wife.
 
Responsibility, referring to the paper that list violations and says admission of responsibility, that would be on line 5 of violation #1 of 2. I have a feeling TM will try and use this against me in court saying I refuse to accept responsibility for what I did. The homework I did at the beginning of group says things that are trying to justify what I did even though I shortly after learned this was wrong I don’t think I ever submitted anything in writing. I will be giving you a paper with this paper that will list all the reasons I believe what I did was wrong and I will read this in court if you want me to. I will also be reading this in group. The name of the counselor is (So Called Therapist) I will try to get a statement from him and will bring it to court I will also bring receipts with me to court from him and from MHMR.
 
Another thing TM might bring up is that she recommended I see the physiologist there at MHMR for a physiological exam she made the physiologist write down that I would not make any progress in treatment without taking medication I said I did not want to take any of the medication provided by the state for free like Thorzine or Haldole. But I would take meds that I would purchase myself and still would if it would please the judge. The Physiologist did not find me in need of any immediate treatment though and told me I seemed quit normal. I never had any formal physiological exam to date (meaning testing) but would be willing to do that also if it would please the judge.

Another point I would like to bring out about group is that you must lie in group and therapy. I just would like to say I even went that far as to lie I would say anything to please them even my statement I made before group was filled with lies. I will be bringing my homework to court if it comes up and the judge would like see a stack of papers I wrote for group I will have them.

One thing I guaranty TM will do is make things up in court about me that seems to be something she does allot. If this happens you can use me as a witness to say these things are not true. Also my wife will be there to be a witness at any time she knows allot about every thing just as much as me. Also JW will make things up about me too mostly from talking to TM. These things are so vast I would need more time to write them if you’d like I can try to list them and give them to you. Things like I am aroused by wearing woman’s cloths under my cloths in public, (not true) or I bump into people on purpose to be aroused (untrue).  
 
My wife will testify to the fact that only she has the pass word to the Internet in my house and only she knows it and uses the Internet in my home. If need be it is possible to prove this as stated in my first paper.
 
Also my wife wanted me to tell you JW in our meeting asked me how much I was spending on my lawyer and who you were and because I have to tell him the truth I told them. She was wondering if this was fair or not. I would think they would be more prepared now.
Another thing is they never read me my rights when they took me to jail.

One thing I guaranty TM will do is make things
Dear McKinney Police, If I was arrested on 01/07/97 and was placed on deferred adjudicated probation on 07/16/97 does that make me immune from Chapter 62? Chapter 62 did not become effective till 09/01/97. The Texas constitution says no laws will be made retroactive.
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Date:01/03/01
10 years probation
Deferred Adjudicated probation
This is all true so help me God.
 
The number one reason I do not want (So Called Therapist) as my psycho therapist is that he is not a Christian and I am. I have argued this to the ACLU since the first day I was placed on probation. I believe this is a violation of my freedom of religion. (So Called Therapist)  can never help me because of this. I believe (So Called Therapist) considers it a flaw that I should consider my beliefs as a foundation and strength. I can never deny the fact that it is the only reason I have survived probation and stayed together with my wife.

The Number 2 reason that has convinced me to complain about (So Called Therapist) is that he taunts me every week. Every week I go to see him he says at least one thing that pushes my button. His favorite thing to do is to riel up others in group against me too. After all this time (So Called Therapist) has learned how to do this. This causes me to go on the defense and write letters to the ACLU and the like. I have realized that the main reason for this is the fact that (So Called Therapist) causes me to react this way. I do believe in standing up for my rights as a American, but I do not get paid to do this and I do not like to feel pushed like this. This is a copy of a letter I wrote to the ACLU about a year and a half ago :
 
I just want to say that although I complain about the ACLU of Texas a lot I know that they help people and have probably helped me in the past. But for some reason I suspect that when I complain to the ACLU my psycho therapist finds out immediately. He says things and hints toward the fact that he knows I made complaints. He has been made into a shallow man over the 20 years of being a pawn of the probation system. I have always thought we get along but make no mistake about it he feels threatened by my complaints to you and I believe he may try to lash out at me. So you are all my witness if he does. I have tried again and again to kindly let him know that enough is enough. I have never mentioned his name in any of my complaint letters to protect him. Yet I have never said anything bad about him. I tell you this I have sat in his group for ten years and I have heard every crazy thing he has ever said. I have never missed a group in ten years. I composed a letter about him years ago and have it sealed in a envelope ready to be mailed to the challenge his license. I have not mailed it all these years. All I want is for him to release me from group. I am only saying this in case he reads this and if he does it can not be legal. It cost way to much for my wife and I who are on a tight budget. After ten years I have gotten all I can get out of group years ago. I am a smart man as my grades from college reflect. Why should I be forced to waste money and time on something I do not need?
 
The third reason is that MS caused (So Called Therapist) and I to turn against each other and I believe this will never be fixed. When MS became my probation officer all trust and integrity that (So Called Therapist) and I shared was ruined for ever. The first letter I sent to BH, talks about this over and over.

I will now list exerts from that letter:

Until after the appointment, in fact the identity of the polygrapher should never be reveled to the P.O., to keep the P.O. From having influence over the polygrapher ) MS has caused (So Called Therapist) and I to have problems since I complained about her in the summer of 2003.
The main reason is I have done it, is for myself, (So Called Therapist) has helped me see that clearer) when MS became a probation officer in Plano she instituted a woman therapist as a chaperon approver, only. Before that in 1999 (So Called Therapist) had a chaperon program that cost three hundred dollars that my wife and I went through to become a chaperon.

MS became my probation officer the summer of 2002. Up until I complained to BH in April of 2003, I have never had a problem with her. I am sure the records will reflect this. Including (So Called Therapist)s records as well. In fact for that one year, I did not have to take any polygraphs or plathismographs or psychological tests. That means that instead of spending $3000.00 in two years of having MS as a probation officer. I have actually spent $3000.00 in one year (the summer of 2003 to the summer of 2004) on polygraphs or plathismographs or psychological tests and urine tests. This is MS fault combined with (So Called Therapist). I tried not to mention this too much because this was a complaint letter about MS not (So Called Therapist).

(So Called Therapist) has been my therapist since 1998 summer ((So Called Therapist)’s help is one reason I have turned my life around. The main reason is I have done it, is for myself, (So Called Therapist) has helped me see that clearer) when MS became a probation officer in Plano she instituted a woman therapist as a chaperon approver, only. Before that in 1999 (So Called Therapist) had a chaperon program that cost three hundred dollars that my wife and I went through to become a chaperon. There have been good things about (So Called Therapist) but I wrote this out of intimidation of who (So Called Therapist) is and how much power over me. The bad things out weigh the good, i.e. : he could cause me to be revoked. (So Called Therapist) is a vengeful person and would do this for revenge only he believes this is some how ok and expectable even though it is unethical and against the law.

The next reason I believe I should have a new P.O. Is : the relationship I have with my therapist. I have been going to (So Called Therapist) since the summer of 1998 and have not missed one single session in six years that equals about 300 meetings. Since MS has become my P.O. (So Called Therapist) has done all he can to avoid treating me unfairly. (So Called Therapist) has with great pane has joined together with MS unwillingly, in her quest to destroy me utterly, after over one year of pressure from her. The bottom line is (So Called Therapist) has a mind of his own and he teamed up with MS and made my life a living hell for the 2 years MS was my p.o. . He almost gave me a heart attack one time when he was screaming at me and sad he was going to revoke me the following week.

Now it is the other way around. Basically MS has stopped me from receiving real therapy from (So Called Therapist) as much as she can. She has turned (So Called Therapist) into a interrogator instead of a therapist. Even though it is plain to see (So Called Therapist) does not believe at all in what is coming out of his mouth. I have often described (So Called Therapist) to my wife as speaking MS’s words and not his own. This was written in 2003 about (So Called Therapist) and is just as true today.
She said that her and (So Called Therapist) agreed 7 months ago that I was to take a polygraph in 8 months (This was never mentioned to me). This is another example of the (So Called Therapist), MS team up against me.

For instance on June 5, 2003 I called (So Called Therapist) from the Collin County Community College and told him that I could not go to group on Monday nights because I have a class. (So Called Therapist) said it would be okay for me to go to another group. I have mentioned this in group and the only way she could have found out that I was going to switch groups is if someone in group told her. When MS found out she told (So Called Therapist) that I could not do that and she called the College to make sure I was not lying. This is just a example of MS. Yet according to what (So Called Therapist) said about 1 and a half years about me going on after care "no one has ever told me how to do my job".

This is a complaint letter about (So Called Therapist) I started around the time SD was my P.O. . In bold are my present comments :

This letter is in reference to (So Called Therapist) this is my court appointed therapist at this time who has been my "therapist" for almost 3 years now. I never wanted to write this letter. I have always wanted to be kind to (So Called Therapist). The two biggest problems I have with (So Called Therapist) are he takes to many of his teachings of phyco therapy to seriously and his mixture of beliefs that are to many to list, let me put it this way you name it and (So Called Therapist) believes it as far as religion. The main reason I am writing this is because (So Called Therapist) has for second time (in the three years I have attended his group) given me a bad report for this past month. Also it just happens I am being forced to pay $200.00 for a polygraph test by his personal polygraph. You see up until a month ago I was paying (So Called Therapist) $35.00 a week for almost 3 years. I am now finally on state assistance witch I should have been on in the first place according to my finical statement. I know (So Called Therapist) is so angry about this that he even tried to raise the state payment for everyone ton $15.00 when it is supposed to be $10.00. This can be verified through my P.O. SD. MS took that assistance away about 6moths latter. I know because he handed me back the money he owed me because of overcharging me at first. This guy is money hungry. (So Called Therapist) constantly complains about being broke, paying to send his daught er to college, having to pay for two homes, unable to sell his old home and on and on.

The things I have heard in group from (So Called Therapist) it would take a book to list. This is not unethical to mention, because (So Called Therapist) is not in group. Group is not therapy for (So Called Therapist). Before I go any further I want to say this letter will contain every thing I can remember that (So Called Therapist) has sad that makes him seem as he should have his license pulled as a therapist. With that I think I will get down to it. First I should say the reason (So Called Therapist) has times when he does not like me is he sees me more than any other of the group members. You see I have not missed a group session in three years and on average most group members miss at least one group meeting a month. I think (So Called Therapist) just does not like me period. Some people miss whole months with know punishment by (So Called Therapist). Group is held once a week. The most criminal thing I can remember (So Called Therapist) saying is that he chaperoned a party 10 to 15 kids of high school ages14-16 or younger I don’t know, they where in a house. He and 1 or more adults agreed that the children would sneak drinks in the house party so they all decided to provide the alcohol until the kids got very drunk as long as the kids did not leave the house. It sounded like (So Called Therapist) had physical contact with the children while they where drunk. The story went on like he could have had some kind of contact with a kid maybe even sexual I don’t know but how (So Called Therapist) says he still has the sex drive of a young man and has been single so long I would not put it past him. I will leave it in the letter for an example of the many times I have been made to almost puke hearing these types of stories from him week after week. It is true though I believe he did provide alcohol for underage teenagers that is what I heard from him. I will not forget when I first started going to group (So Called Therapist) was with his wife ((So Called Therapist) is not a bad looking guy and can be quit charismatic at times) she was fat and not good looking at all(fat and ugly are cool with me it just seemed odd because of his sexual appetite). Shortly after I started attending group (So Called Therapist) divorced his wife. T (So Called Therapist) believes it is ok to divorce in fact he has encouraged me on many occasions to divorce my precious wife of 15 years and lead a gay life style. He did suggest me divorcing my wife and excepting that I am gay when I am not. Although after years of complaining this has seemed to stop. Just a month ago though he got very upset that I said sex between two men was not sex and that sex was only possible if there is love. He shouted does it smell like sh*@ in here? In other words I was lying if I said that. All the while there was someone in group doing a make up who I did not know at all. (So Called Therapist) has tried to convince me I was hopelessly gay and still does to this day even though it has been more than 4 years since I have engaged in any thing like that. I think he is angry at me for over coming that problem in my life. This is true to this day. This leads me to something (So Called Therapist) has said several times in group, that his wife said he molested his daughter as a way of his divorce. The thing is I could see how it might happen with this man. and I believe he has his daughter stay with him on many occasion living in his house. I believe (So Called Therapist) is way to open about sex to his daughter from what I have heard him say about things he has said to her. I think that is why I mentioned this. Another thing he has said on many groups is that he has had many traffic violations even spending the night in jail once. I know he drinks often so maybe it could be a DWI, I don’t know. I have tried to tell him to give up drinking more than once. The next thing I would like to mention that should be mentioned that would warrant (So Called Therapist) loosing his license is how he jokes allot about if you pay him money he will make things easy on you. He has joked on several occasions that we could all just pay him and leave group. Many times people walk in group late with out note by (So Called Therapist). When I say (So Called Therapist) jokes in this letter, how can someone like myself and others in the group joke in the situation we are in. In other words half of him seems to be joking and half seems seriously. What is stopping someone who does not like me or someone else in the group from bribing (So Called Therapist) or my underpaid P.O. into revoking my probation? Believe me if anyone would take a bribe it would be (So Called Therapist). This is as true as it ever was he complains about being broke constantly. This is what I mean about poor business ethics. I have heard him try and joke to people if you give me money you will not have any problems, again this is any thing but a joke to me or any one else on a low budget. Since I have been in (So Called Therapist)’s group I have seen or heard him talk about people that have re-offended. The thing is these are always people (So Called Therapist) deems to be doing well in group. I do not believe this is always true. But it has happened as per a story I heard from one of my P.O.‘s about 2 ½ years ago, that this one guy got a excellent report from (So Called Therapist) then got revoked. This one anonymous person who he deems to be one of his best behaved to the P.O. who was brought to court for a jury trial recently for fondling and asking a 13 year old. And was almost indicted for not stopping penetrating a woman during sex after she said stop. This anonymous person has missed group so many times for every group he has been to he has missed. You see he is a good old boy, a local boy (this is white power county). To his own admission the only reason he got off is because he had a very expensive attorney. Yet this anonymous person till this day can do no wrong. He has never taken a polygraph and has been in this group for at least 1 year longer than me. One thing (So Called Therapist) likes rich people and redneck types this is true about him. I do not fit either of these types of people. There was this one anonymous person he was trying to get him to live with his children who was not aloud by his requirements he knew that he was living at the house. It turned out this anonymous person was peeping in windows at night and even entered a house and masturbated while looking at a young girl. In hind site this guy would fall asleep in group. I did not realize it till latter that he was probable tired from peeping all night. I have been in so many groups at least 1/4 of all the groups I have attended have been discussions about movies video games hobbies having nothing to do therapy. I think (So Called Therapist) lacks the ability to take charge in a group. Every time (So Called Therapist) does a monthly progress report he lies. For instance lately he has been saying we have been discussing the book: Out of the Shadows. This is a out and out lie and he has been saying this for months. If I had in my possession all the reports he has done I could prove in memory that he lies at least 95% of the time that he lied. I am not just talking about the topic it is almost the whole thing, made up. To save time? I don’t know, this is peoples lives we are talking about. That leads me to explain this: (So Called Therapist) Wight waits till the last week of every month to write about the entire month. What ever happens the last group of the month is what he will say happened the entire month. So we sit in group discussing how (So Called Therapist) put together a patio. (So Called Therapist)’s favorite thing to do is counsel people on there relationships when he himself has been divorced twice. This is really true I hate to admit it but this is totally true. Every time I go into see my P.O. I fear he will ask me what we are doing and what I say will not match what is on the report. About his divorce he is now having a relationship with a woman who is ten years older than him this is statistically dysfunctional. Example the last week of last month I used a cognitive distortion(we all do it) I was feeling sorry for one of the guys because he was on probation in Austin and they were real easy on him and he moved to Collin County and it has caused him to get a divorce from his wife. So I made a excuse for him. It wasn’t right but I wanted to see how wrong it was. This is always my weakness it is so sad to see these people have to endure so much unfair treatment. To see people go to prison for day to day stuff of your average American like drinking a bear or using the Internet. The average offender has about 50 probation requirements. I have said many times to my P.O. and in writing how hard it is for me to see people suffer because of probation. I read a statistic one time that said 20 percent of people on probation or parole for a sex offence commit suicide in the first 2 years. Sometimes the very people (So Called Therapist) should help are the ones he condemns because they are poor.

Every week (So Called Therapist) has a quote a his black board from Moslem, Hinduism, New Age, Buddhism authors. He will refer to these through out group as if reading the Bible or something. This is true to this day. I have written some of them done: In order to see, you must recognize that light is within, not with out, you do not see outside yourself. Nor is the equipment for seeing out side you. An essential part of this equipment the light that makes seeing possible. It is with you always making vision possible. It is with you always making vision possible in every circumstance. This is one example of many of these type quotes.

I have seen him go one for an hour or more at a time about how he can save the world with this sick type of zeal whispering at times on the verge of tears like David Coresh or something. Basically the majority of the groups I have attended he conducts like some kind of cult church meeting. Not the majority but allot of groups, lately he seems to calm down acting like this. I think (So Called Therapist) try’s to push these beliefs on the people that attend and if you disagree he is deeply offended and holds a grudge for it. I have written allot of these bazaar quotes down which are contrary to the Bible and would be glad to give them on request. Hear is one of them: Alchemy is the art of transformation. Turning fear, hate, anger, sadness, pain into love. (So Called Therapist) has admitted in group that he believes that because of him treating someone they committed suicide and I believe he did. (So Called Therapist) has admitted to have homosexual sex as a child and as a adult in groups that I have attended many times. He has gone as far to say a man give better oral sex than a women. The way he talks so casually about such things disgusts me. I do not know if he got oral sex as a adult, he may have been talking about his childhood. The way he has talked to me like that has anything but helped me. Also he has talked like this to my wife while she was in individuals with me. This gay guy in group who was arrested for trying to pick up a police officer was hitting on me every time group ended it got so bad I had to tell my probation officer. (So Called Therapist) ignored what I said. (So Called Therapist) has admitted to me that P.O. officers have told him to kick people out of his group just because the P.O. says so. I am glad I said this to prove that (So Called Therapist) is totally a pawn of the P.O.. And that his statement no one tells how to do my job is a lie. I believe I lost my job of 3 years at Blockbuster Warehouse in McKinney because (So Called Therapist) made me go see his Physiologist and he told my job about my offense, I believe (So Called Therapist) also encouraged my P.O. to investigate me at work which has caused me to loose my job. I have had to see a Physiologist twice under (So Called Therapist) costing me over a thousand dollars. Despite me telling (So Called Therapist) I do all the chores in my house and work out 6 days a week and am a freelance artist and writer he wrote week after week that I had to much unsupervised time. (So Called Therapist) has said on many occasions that it is ok to find a girl attractive if she is well endowed and looks sexy even if she is under age. To this day I disagree with that. Underage females are not attractive to me as my plathismograph’s would prove that cost me almost 1,000.00 because of (So Called Therapist) making me take them. The first one had naked men no doubt (So Called Therapist) ordered this. I had no arousal to this and the second one had naked woman that aroused me. I have actually got reports back from (So Called Therapist) that said I wasn’t talking enough about my cognitive distortion’s even though I haven’t done anything like that in over three and a half years and have had a beard that long and have gained 85 pounds of mussel since then and he still accuses me of cognitive distortion. True till this day if not about the cognitive distortions about my so called uncontrollable urge to be turn on by men. Any one that knows me knows this is totally untrue. The truth is I find men ugly and woman beautiful. (So Called Therapist)’s idea of someone getting better is if they embrace cult type religions. I have heard him on many occasions teach people to hate their parents as a type of therapy. He love to talk about how he has gotten so much better that he realized his dad was just a person and it was ok if he hated him. True in fact he has said he hates his parents because they pushed Christianity on him this is why I believe he hates Christians. There was this one guy that exposed himself hundreds of times and (So Called Therapist) said he was finished with therapy even though this guy hardly ever showed up to group because he traveled allot and get this he exposed himself mostly while traveling! (So Called Therapist) let him go because he had individuals at least once a week at $100.00 each. Money Hungry. (So Called Therapist) likes to talk about how he tells his daughter about sex even though she is only 11 years old. He believes all young people should know about sex. I think this taken to far can ruin a child and have said this to (So Called Therapist) more than once. No one has aver tried to save (So Called Therapist) from himself than me. I think he is too set in his ways to ever be a help to me though. (So Called Therapist) Wight told everyone in group how he saw the movie American Beauty though it glorified sexual molestation. (So Called Therapist) is very much into the Internet I gerent that if you could find it on his server if he viewed pornography. (So Called Therapist) has since admitted to having a addiction to porn. Again I do not think it is write for (So Called Therapist) to say things like this is group. This is not group for (So Called Therapist) if he wants group he should go pay for it himself. I remember he was talking about it one day and I said it was possible to get caught looking at porn with proper technology, he had this really guilty look on his face. (So Called Therapist) has broken up about 2 to 3 marriages since I have been attending group. He will say or do anything to get someone to divorce or break up a long term relationship that he can this is just the ones I know of you have to understand he has up to 50 or more people under him. True till this day. This has been the one thing that hurts me in group the most, his lack of compassion for marriage he has said many time he does not believe in marriage and although he refers to his wife, he is not married. He says he had a ceremony on his own in the woods. He has a system that you are supposed to go by if you are supposed to complete group and I have seen him release people before their time without completing his program that he does not enforce because I believe it is not in forcible because of the way he conducts his groups. This is what I mean about him wasting groups away on chit chat and then lying in his monthly reports that we where working on this or that. Yet he excuse for keeping someone longer in group is they have not completed his program, especially if he does not like that person (Like me.) for not believing like he does. This one anonymous person (So Called Therapist) let go had sex with a 13 year old when he was 18. I would sit and listen to this guy week after week he hardly had a clue. I was sure of one thing he was attracted to young girls. I think he let him go because he might be called into question about whether he was qualified to treat him. I do not remembered the specifics but this anonymous person was let go early and should not have been. There is more I could add but I will quit for now and will add more Lord Willing. The Sunday before Christmas the year 2001 another man that attended group since may of 2001 committed suicide this makes two of I know of.. In the report of December (So Called Therapist) concerning me (So Called Therapist) said I was trying to control things I can not. He often says this to the group. I believe it means people cannot control whether or not he decides to condemn them to go to court for possible revocation. It is another example of how far gone he is in his way of thinking. I am sure that (So Called Therapist) Wight is angry with me for quitting my cognitive distortions and becoming a body builder the bigger I become the more I am convinced of this. (So Called Therapist) knows I am only one polygraph away from moving back to Connecticut. Since he found this out he has been giving me bad reports. Know matter how much I say about how much I miss my family he dismisses it with excuses about why I might be saying it other than of witch is real. Not surprising from a man that says he hates his mom and dad and encourages others to do so. This was true I have seen him do this to other people try to keep them from moving knowing he would loose money if they where not in treatment with him. (So Called Therapist) recently said he would show attraction to female minors if he were to take a plathismograph. True, this must have been added latter around 2001 around MS’s time.

(So Called Therapist) expects me to condemn others in group even if such persons know were I work and live. If anyone in group wanted to they could harm my wife or I. So if I give someone the benefit of the doubt, he says I am using distorted thinking. To this day (So Called Therapist) writes in his monthly reports what we are doing in group and it is a out and out lie. I believe (So Called Therapist) is prejudice in a way that he would allow a good old boy get away with ten times more than he would anyone else. In the three years that I have been assigned to (So Called Therapist) I have never missed a group, that is one of the reasons I am able to write this letter so well. Everyone else that I know of that has attended group has missed up to three weeks a month. We are supposed to go to group one day a week. One time when my wife and I where in a individual season with (So Called Therapist) he said a dog licked his penis. (So Called Therapist) defines someone as making progress only if they go along with his eastern religious beliefs. He never says this but it isn’t hard to figure out that it is necessary to do well in his group. When some one goes along with (So Called Therapist) it is easy to tell they are not sincere but just going along out of fear. (So Called Therapist) feeds on this fear. If you do not agree with (So Called Therapist)’s beliefs he marks you as a enemy. Although I never verbally disagree with his way out beliefs it is easy to tell I am one of those he hates. I never verbally agree, this is how he has made me his enemy in his own mind. I never talk in group unless it is constructive in that it will benefit myself and anyone in group. When referring to the man that killed himself he said "why should I care if the son of a bitch killed himself. It shouldn’t be impossible to get other group members to witness that have attended group when these things (So Called Therapist) has said in this letter but because attendance is so bad it would not be easy. It has been so many years though and (So Called Therapist) has become more careful at what he says though and probable because of me.

(So Called Therapist) curses allot in group. They have even outlawed cursing in the military. I called (So Called Therapist) 11 times on 01/23/02 during regular business hours. I left two messages. It took him two days to return my call he never once answered the phone. What if one of his patients that killed themselves had the same problem.

Also I must tell you that I have heard at least ten times, speeches from (So Called Therapist) about how Marijuana should be legal. This is not something you want to hear from someone with so much power over you.

I would also like to add that (So Called Therapist) believes prostitution should be legal as well.
More of the same for (So Called Therapist) as of February 21, 2008. He is still preaching on the legalization of Mariana. He wears Buddha beads around his neck even though he has said more than once that he does not believe in Buddhism because it is too selfless. That makes sense to me because this man deep down does not care about any one but himself. He took a jet to Washington the other weekend to pray in a church. He still seems obsessed with the person he calls his wife. Even tough she is not his wife. He had a ceremony with just him and her in the woods about a year ago and really believes she is his wife. Last time I saw him he was going on and on about a play his daughter was in called the Vagina something. It sounded disgusting. He said we in group should all go see it.

More of the same from (So Called Therapist). WE all got to here about him having oral sex with his wife. It makes me want to puke just thinking about it. Also many groups likes to talk about his daughter is a lesbian. He went on and on in group one time about is daughter called him crying on the phone saying how she could not make her female companion love her. He said her female companion looked like a man. He said jokingly that he needed to give his daughter marriage counseling. He also defends his daughter using pot. I think this is further proof that (So Called Therapist) has a inappropriate relationship with his daughter. His ex wife accused him of molesting his daughter. I have always believed this to be true. I believe this is why he continues to pay for her rent food and college even though she is a adult.
 
(So Called Therapist) also said the Apostle Paul was a homosexual. He continues to attack Christianity in group. He also continues to push his beliefs that are a mesh of Buddhism, Muslim, Hinduism and who knows what else. He sounds like a raving lunatic most of the time to make a long story short.

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